L.O.V.E.

L.O.V.E..The line of virtual existence..L.O.V.E.Liar of the vain expertise.Love..LOVE Lah..Nyeh...Lama daah udah inda update blog//behabuk..HAAHA

Anyway, I moves school..I'm not in PTEM Anymore but in SMSA..

Talking with Jimah via MSN:
I  think Jimah's awesome..HAHAHAHXD Awu banar!  Inda kamu dapat ni..Girl like this..Love like this..apakan..HAHAHXD..Blankni..Banar..

And btw..I'm giving up on love udah tah..No more him..No more savior and no more this guy lah..I can love but i don't want a bf..NGALIH!

Only me,GTA,Federation,Friends and Famliy..THATS All..AHAHA

It's Over..Bye! New and old friends :)

 I'M DONE!! IT'S OVER!! TOODLES! LET'S LIVE IN OUR SEPERATE WAYS!! YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY GUY!
-Hate that I love you before...-

And oh yeah...If it wasn't for you..I might be heart broken..But you patched it up and bandaged it all together. Thanks :')
-Might aswell stick with you pal :)-

*I HOPE YOU'RE READING THIS!*

Btw..I feel neglected every single day by you..I really do..I thought we were friends..You have never thought how I really feel..But yet you only think of yourself and  other people but me.Think it through..
-A devoted friend who is being selflessly ignored-

But I thank god for especially letting me to be friends to a special person. Thanks :D

-A helping hand is always been provided by you :)-

4 people that became part of my daily life..But some of them I want to  open their eyes and fix them!!! And so of them I wanted to treasure my memories forever with them.

Conflic feelings

-Seriously, I hate you...Better stay out of my life..There are many reasons why you made me hate you...You ruined my resolution for this year..Stop being a know it all..Stop being my mother..Or better yet..Stop what you are doing..If you hate me so much and think that I'm out of your league, then go, the door is wide open..- ~Kim Nuna~I hate you`2PM

- You..I'm not sure..I have doubt about you..I don't hate you..I'm just in doubt..Are your actions real and mutual..?? Stop hiding in the bushes and tell me what is in your heart and mind..It's what like you and other people said:Better know the truth, even if it hurts..- ~ Kim Nuna~Heart,Mind and Soul'Tohoshinki

-What do you have to go..2 weeks is like 2 days..I'm your only daughter..I have never been left alone before..Your the reason why I can't sleep at night and the reason why I can't hold my tears..All those burdens and love..I appreciate what you have done..I love you mum,dad and lukman..I'm know I'm not that perfect but at leat I'm worthy..right..?? I can feel your love- ~Kim Nuna~Your love is all I need'Dong Bang Shin Ki

-Tsst tsst..If you love me just say it..Stop making me jealous and stop holding back..I can see it from your eyes.. You glance back and forth..I'm not rushing but I want to know~Kim Nuna~Let me hear your voice'Big Bang

4 conflict feelings = 1 mutual support..I need someone who can help me..

Tasek Lama Ice breaking session day with B14 and B15

TODAY WAS THE BOMB!

Cakap Brunei ja ku eh..Ngalih ku ni..Campur cmpur lah..Anyway, woke up early this morning to get ready for the trip to Tasek Lama. I have never been there..Seriously..Cam like..What?? Yeah I know..Aku bukan lama di Brunei jua..Took off from home at 6.50 am. LOL eh..Cam sesat wah kami ah!! Sign board tarang tarang nampak kami ignored..I was like " Bukan Tasek Lama ni ma.." But the sign board says : Taman *something* Tasek Lama..Haish..we had to go back to that place again..No kidding..Ketara wah balum pernah ke sana ah..I arrived there at about 7.25 am and met Sai, Mao and the others afterwards.

Ofcourse went you are at the Sixth Form, you have no Pysical Education except if you took physical in your CCA. I couldn't remember how to do proper streching..So yeah..I followed the people nearby me..Gosh..Heheheh :D..I know..But I'm glad that those people accept rather that thinking that Im a crazy kid..

After the others have arrived, we were given some duties by the tutors. Some people get the easiesst job..Carrying some foods( Nasi Katok, watermelon,oranges,apples,sandwiches and drinks)..Oh yeah easy huh..Well well..Lucky them..HMPH...I had to carry balloons..Not an ordinary balloon, balloons filled with water! Gallons of them! Apa ni..Bukan main ngalihnya! Naik bukit kaliah! Grr...Inda papalah..Kurus jua ku..

It seemed like ashort distance..But to me it's like a mile..Thank god..I made it to the top! The Tower of Tasek Merimbun! Went up shortly after putting the things down.Magnificent view I must say..aha...Oh yeah..Hmm..whatever..I guessed my mind went wuzzy for a moment here..I didn't know that we will havve our second trip up the hill again -_-..

It's like a roller coaster here! I'm up and I'm down! I'm happy, I'm sad..Fuh...After the long walked hours..(approximately 5 minutes)..Gahaha!! Sorry..We had our photo group at a shaky, not safe, made of 4 woods bridge..Aha... Talked about safety precautions..I took Sir Michael's position and yeah I stood on 2 woods and under it was a small stream..Safety..?? Of course not..I took the first picture and I felt so shaky..Lawa plang the picture..The second one was okay except I left out 1 person..Sorry..The third take was picture perfect :D.

Let the real adventure begin, hiking time! Woo!! But..It's like a roller coaster here! I'm up and I'm down! I'm happy, I'm sad..Fuh...It was fun though and a bit akward..I have never make that rarely hold hands with boys..But for the sake of my soul, I rather live than fall/die..Shyness filled me all over..I'm not use to it..anyway..made it down in approximately 20 minutes. Impressive right.?? Heck yeah.Aii..Balik lagi tanpat awal tadi..HAISH! We have to go up the first hill again!! Aigoo..Tired eh...Oh hex..In 10 minutes, I reached the Tower..Again..last place too..Ahahaha!! Yeah...

Ate breakfast with friends. had a bar of snickers with friends. Shortly, we had our games. The first was three-legged race. Dinnie was in the middle with Mao and me on his side..It wasn't much of a help.But we had fun! We laughed like horses! It was really difficult to walk on six feet..Or was it three..And with everybody stepping on your foot! It hurts too good! gahaha!!  Last place again. But it didn't really matter! At least we had fun :D.Next itwas the mice and cat game. my team won!No wonder being a mouse is easier than being a cat! Then it was the flag capture race. I didn't participate though..The next was the ultimate game! Throwing balloons!! Tapi..Balloon atu karas berabis..So..Err..It was fine..But it hurt..As if you are throwing a brick to someone..Yeah..Imagine that..

After that we clean the things up, said goodbyes and changed our clothes and say bye bye..That was fun..I'll update the picture sooner..I'm tired and I want to sleep...

P.S~What is love..?? How come it goes on and off...??

Kim Nuna Loves You (you know who..:))

"Darkness on my eyes" and "Joy for the world"

Darkness seemed a depress word to use..Pure evil and yet so true..I hate it..I hate it so much...I pray to Allah so I can confront this problem.The words, the action, the expression are dark..So dark..That I can see it...K..So emo man!! Just straight to the point and so moving in the bushes NUNA!! K..It's just that I'm hurt inside but I'm not brave enough to tell..I don't hate and I don't break..I just want to make changes...Yeah but what's the use? All life has it ups and downs..And thats what makes the world balance..

I'm missing my friends and family especially mu cousins..Especially I.MEN :) TEEHEE :D. I'm happy that my love life is going much better :D GAHAAAHAH!! I love history so much that I want to know all about history of each countries except for 2 countries..Pfft...GEO! Omona! I'm loving the pain so much!! Sociology!! WOO!! Er..Yeah..No comment! EAS :D So er..Devilishly charming :) What? I know..I love oxymorons :)

All hyped up here. I'm excited for CDC! (child development center). For my country and for the society, I will help all those around me :) I have voluntered for the taking part of taking care of the kids. *sigh* If feels good to do well good..I'm sorry if my writing is nonsense..Even though I'm all hyped..I have conflicted with other feelings also..

Yeah thats all..VIETNAM! I"M COMING!!!

Saranghae Hamida to I.Men, Yazzed, Amal Nabilah,Amal NazirahAzimah Rosli, Nazihah Mafri, Aniza Naim, Bella Shahbana, Adibah,Amal,Aila,Hanis Samiihah,Jalilah Jali, Mira,Ema Elfera,Syafiqah Rosli, Saidatul Shahri,Kamaliah Sah,Memzy,Ezzati and oh...Nurul Nabeel:P

My love was red a rose before.Now its just a white rose....Interview, ready to meet my maker...

8/04/2010

I had my PRS interview today..Hehehe...IT WAS SO AWESOME!! Before that..I have a confenssion..Yesterday before this date..I had a lot of thinking about 'him'..I know he admires me and I admired but when I think about it..Is it really worth it? I mean..The reason why I like was because..Me classmates told that he likes me..So I sort of like him...Kind of ridiculous right? But yeah..I'm a teenager..So..I gave up on him..

He said hi during today's morning..No spark, no love whatsoever..It was quite normal..I didn't blush nor feel the love..Pretty empy I guess..Gloomy really..Even during history class..My pal who ismy spy and still observed his every move..He looked infront of the whiteboard but his eyes...His eyes glaced at me..He still have the feelings for me..I told my friends about my feelings to him, how it finally change....There was mixed reaction..Some was glad,some were like":WHAT!!!WHY!!???SAYANG EH!!" and some was neutral..

Expertists and proffesionals told me about the love theory..Some say I should not think about it..But..Words are easy to say than you're heart..Maybe I still have a little love for that guy..Then suddenly, the lovestory was switched off..And my nervous wreck feeling came out all of the sudden..THE INTERVIEW!!! Less than an hour!! So yeah..I was so nervous that I sang all day long..LIKE CRAZY!!

Then..It came..Nurul Nabilah No.11 for the interview..I waited at room GF-C8..Anxiously..And also jobless..I took some quiz from Quizilla.com.LOL..Really jobless...The quiz was " Which Drama would you be in?" And I got GLEE!! WOO!! Yeah okay...Paranoid..Moving on..I went to the interview room.Then I wait again..Gosh..I hate waiting..But then I thought:"NURUL! Patience is a virtue darling.."..So yeah..I waited and waited..And waited..."NEXT!" It was my turn!! OMG!! I sat down and gave my greetings to the seniors.Alhamdullillah I was able to answer every questions..Things go well when I have to sing infront of the seniors...They asked me: "So..Can you sing?" And I said" Oh err...I like to sing...But..I'm a horrible singer..: and she said: " Oh thats all right..I have a horrible voice too..Sing okay?" So Yeah..I sang to Nobody and dance aswell..They laughed and applaud me...GAHAH!!!

I felt relieved that I was being brave enough to do that..Then I waited again for the 2nd interview with the High Commisioner of PRS!! GAH!! 4 people...Gazed at me when it was my turn..I can't believe I felt so shaky..And I panicked..It somehow went well..They laughed though..Probably because I looked funny with my nervous face..After that interview, I strolled along to the Councellor's room..Because the High comissioner told me so..This was the scariest of all..Okay..I waited..AGAIN.....Waiting..I talked with me pals and two of the PRS seniors..The view to see the teaches interviewing us was blocked by the notice boards..So I knelt down and almost lay on the ground just to see their face. Everybody laughed at this cause..I don't know..Maybe it's weird...???

Err..Yeah whatever..My turn came and I had to walk like a penguin just to squeeze through the boards..The teachers giggled at this..Then I sat down and say hi to them...Well..Supposely..They asked me:"What is your tutor group?"And I said oh..:"Music club!" Then they giggled again..I panicked again! Stupid answer..-_-..They asked again: What's your tutor group?" and i said: "Oh block 2!" Another stupid answer..X( They laughed like a horse this time..The teachers told me to calm down and I blushed cause..IT WAS EMBARASSING!!! Then they asked repetedly:"What is your group tutor?".And I said: "er..B14...Nurul..Nabilah.....er...Yeah..."..Then they laughed again..The official interview began, it went well and I answered all the questions truthfully and confidently..

After the interview, I went to get my bag and waited and waited for my result to come...

Love after Love. Friends are forever. I MISS YOU OMAJI AND APAJI!!!

Sorry for the late updates...I have been busy with school...Forgive me..And please let this long post sooths you readers..

Today was a terrific day!! Partially though..I didn't slept well last night...I dreamt about 'him' again..It's too good to be true!! T_T!!! Elders always say that if you dream about that person, it means he/she iss thinking of you..I hope he thinks about me everyday! Went straight to the classroom..without wearing my spectacles..Silly me! I thought I left it..After Mao and Sai told me to check everything, my specs was inside my pocket..Guess clumsiness will be transfered to your child..Earlier that morning, father too though left his work pass..He searched everywhere,his room,car,bags..But..hehhe..It was right beside him all this time..

Anyway, I felt happy because..He called me by his name. A sense of social solidarity!! I'm so happy!! I helped with his homework :D. We received our P.E kit aka our school t-shirt..It's too big for me..I knew I should take size M..The bell rang, and I shortly went to my first class of the day, English A 'AS".We studied about onaematopia."Sounds" Fuuny class! This is the only class where my funny side came out continuously without holding back! I love it! I'm the class clown again..Well at least what my other friends think..! Yahoo!! But only for english..Next class was geography. Moral of the day..Do not follow a friend who is following her guy cousin..I almost went to the boy's restroom -__-..Geo was so fun! We learned about drainage basin :)

Then it was break time. Mingled with my friends. and talked about my improvements with 'him. It definitely improved! Sociology was the next class..Here is the thing..I love sociology and my friends..I hate it when my friends got scolded...It's so deliberately cruel for me and  a bit unfair though..The topic that we learneed was about census,identiy and culture, very interesting :) OOHH HISTORY!! I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!Short -term causes of French Revolution, not only that, he sat closer this time! EEEE!!! He looked at me when I'm not looking and I look at him when he is not looking :D And he get my jokes too! Lol! Emo moment..Better not get my hopes to high..I don't want to get hurt...

Went home at 12.30PM. Practised "River Flows in You" by Yiruma and "Haru Haru" by Big bang on the keyboard aka Wannabe piano. It went well :) I hope..Hehehe!! NENE CAME TO MY HOUSE!! Yea!!OMAJI! OPAJI!! BOGOSHIPDA!!! 

Okay,thats all for now.My ranting stops here.XOXOX.See ya next time :)